It has been one year since the family moved back to Atlanta. What a year it has been. One of the best things that happened was that our daughter was accepted into her first choice school. She loves it. She has a super group of friends and is accepted for being the smart, geeky, hilarious fangirl that she is. Her life is what her dad and I had imagined it would be. I'm so proud of her willingness to be uprooted as a teenager. She is brave and strong and I hope to be just like her when I grow up.
For me and my husband, well, our lives didn't work out as planned. We have decided to separate. We are good. Honestly. He is my best friend. That "for better or worse" stuff they talk about in those vows we took almost 20 years ago is real. We have been through some serious shit together. Some people are questioning how we can be "good". And my response is, how could anyone think that we would turn our backs on each other now? I love him deeply and he feels the same towards me. But, sometimes, life really does get in the way. I'm not going to lie, it's weird and certainly not easy, but it's something we have to face and figure out. I know we will. We've been through tougher.
I am a plethora of emotions. Terrified because I am suddenly on my own for the first time in 21 years. Energized because I can start anew and the possibilities seem endless. Profoundly sad because I can't imagine growing old without this man holding my hand into the sunset. And then anxious and nauseous because, well, let's face it. I'm not getting any younger. 50 is not too far in my future. I've been a stay-at-home-mom for 14 years. I'm not sure many people will be banging on the door of a retired actor with no college education. But, I am willing to "step into the arena" as Brené Brown (and Roosevelt) tells me. I'm willing to fail and to get up again.
Our daughter, as I said, is doing great. Our non-drama has laid the foundation for her no drama. With a teenager, that is important. Well, my teenager, anyway.
So, with that news, I have updated my website and have recently decided to add humans to the mix. So, you need a new headshot? I am the perfect person to do that for you! Need a senior or teen shot? I am your photographer! LinkedIn picture or something similar? Let me know. New puppy? Old puppy? You know I am your woman. Do you just want a great picture of your true self? I'd be honored.
I'd love to share a few hours with you.
I'm with you. In the arena. And when we fail, we'll fail together, while daring greatly."
~ Brené Brown